I know when I first started withdrawal I wondered if anyone really got better. I didn't ever think I would be okay, I mean I was a mess, I had every symptom in the book. Most people didn't believe that I was withdrawing.
I feel I was prone to dependency because I used anti-depressants for 3 1/2 year prior to benzo's and as I got off antidepressants the doctors slowly got me hook on benzo's.
I took Ativan as need for panic attacks and anxiety when I was working as a personal trainer. I had cold turkeyed Lexapro so I think that is what caused a lot of the panic and anxiety. After about three weeks of 3 pills a day I stopped. Then I got sick( benzo withdrawal) on top of antidepressant withdrawal. They then put me on Klonopin as needed. I eventually broke down and got into a fight, landing me in jail where I cold turkeyed Klonopin. The day I got out (two weeks later) I went to the local mental hospital and they started me on Klonopin .5mg morning .5mg noon and 1mg bedtime. I continued this for about a month and then cut down as much as possible every week until I was off( 3 months).
I don't know how to explain it. I felt horrible for 7 months. Then one day I just stared getting better. I used to not be able to walk into a store and shop, drive a car, sometime couldn't leave the house, but now I can do just about what ever I want. I still have symptoms, but I am glad to say that they are manageable. I now have emotions and the ability to think. I finally know who is in the mirror. I feel a lot like myself and I know in my heart that in a little more time I will be 100%.
Stay clear of this evil and you will get your life back. Thank you for all of your help and support. My baby girl comes into this world Dec 1. I prayed I would get better by the time my baby comes and God listened.
To every body who suffers, keep fighting one day within 6-18 month you will have your life back...